Make Me Lovesick

(Song of Solomon 8:6-7; 14)

How long has it been since I sought You?

Do I even long to see Your face?

Has it come to a place

Where I am thankful for what You’ve done,

But never love You for who You are?

Forgive me.

Easily, time will age into a distance

Of forgetting the very reason

Why I fall on my knees. 

Do I recognize who I bow to?

You are Lord, the Sovereign One, Most High,

Above everything.  My Maker, Savior and Healer.

I remember clearly the moments You rescued me

Out of the jaws of hell’s grasp.
However…in my gratefulness, do I forget to love You?

Your grace was far more than Your ‘Rescue 911’.

In Your redemption, Your heart was jealous for me

To know You. That in a moment, time might halt

And I would recognize Your voice,

And return the gaze. 

Forgive me.

Let us be strangers no more.

Come hastily, my Groom and my worship

Will be for more than Your benefits.

Knock on my door, and I will open my bed.
I long for Your presence;

I enjoy the pleasure it is

To sit at Your feet and know You.

Gratefulness turns into adoration,

I am lovesick for You.

“Set me as a seal upon your heart,

As a seal upon your arm;

For love is as strong as death,

Jealously as cruel as the grave;

Its flames are flames of fire,

A most vehement flame.” 

"Will I Believe?"

I was on Facebook, when it notified me that I had posted something four years ago.  A poem I had written back in college.  Reading, it's cool to see the prayer that was on my heart.  What's more amazing, however, is how much this prayer has become stronger as time went on.  As I see my community, and Reservation, it is explicitly clear that the only answer to our hurts, questions, and to save us from our sin is Jesus.

Pain, hate, hurt.
People are getting burned by other people.
Folks wondering what to do when hell is around.
Bashing, lashing, and thrashing
Catfights, dogfights in the night.
Winds are blowing hard
Storms are brewing
Disease comes and goes as it pleases
Anger is stewing.
Everyone wondering if something will be done.
In the world of chaos and confusion,
Desperation and death,
Where is the sun?                                                                                                                                                                   
 Hope...Faith...

Will I believe You-
In spite of all that I see and hear-
That Your promises
Are for today and are for real?
That it is capable to stand on what was said so long ago?

Will I believe
That heaven can come to earth
And despite the present circumstance,
New things can be given birth?
Will I believe that new can break out of the old?

Will I believe
That fortresses that have stood strong,
Holding in secrets, pain, and fear
Will in time crash to grave's throng?
That broken innocence might become whole again?

Will I believe
That in the face of death and chaos,
Your love will bring in healing;
That people shall be found; who were once lost.
And in their complete being, Your hand will heal
The broken soul and body?

Will I believe You?
Yes-Your word is truth.
I know it as such.
But will I trust You,
And cling to You, even when the fog turns blinding?

A people wandering and need to be found.
Something is rising up in my soul,
I gotta shout it aloud.
Our deepest longing:
We want Your embrace -
See Your face.
Because it's only by Your grace
We are able to call You, " Daddy".
We know the hurts, but we know of something more.
Yearning for Your truth to kill the lies,
Yearning for Your love to be poured out:
Unquenchable, unconditional, and immeasurable.
We cry out for Yours to become Yours
Claim the territories as war's spoils;
Take back what was stolen from us.
We ask for heaven to pour its oil
Today.

We ask for today!
We ask that the promises You proclaimed
Be manifested today.  What You declared come true.
In all the ages and years, You remain the same.
Boldly we come, because You are faithful to answer.

We know what we seek is not seen.
At least not now; at least not for the moment.
So we continue to press in, expecting...
Pursuing purposely, because You are not dormant.
What You have spoken shall come to pass.

True, sometimes it is dark.
We can only see a small light
Shrouded by a hidden tunnel.
We don't know how to walk in the night,
Yet we cling to Your side -
Knowing You will lead us home.

And so we hope!
Despite all the things that came out of Pandora's box,
Faith is alive, and hope lives.
We invite You to come, we answer the door's knock.
Let Your name be glorified even at this time.

Because before we even sought Your face,
You longed for us to be Your own.
You loved before we asked for Your grace.
And now, You and us become "we",
As we respond to Your call.

We give all of ourselves to You, Jesus
King, Ransomer, Lord.
We are not made whole by our righteousness,
But You covered us with Your sanctifying blood.
Before the throne, we are now justified.

How is it that You wanted us
After all that we did, and who we became?
But You said we were worth it -
You would take the blame.
And now, You adopted us, poured out Your favor.

Abba!  Thank You for Your saving hand.
I cling to You as a child with his blanket,
Because I know without You, I cannot make it.
But Abba!
There are still others around
Whose pain reigns in their souls
Maybe they know You, maybe not...
Either way, I am crying out
I will not stop
Because I know Your promises will be revealed
And the truth of Your love and majesty
Will be seen.
What was hidden from us
Now will be hidden in our hearts.

You are Sovereign and Lord over everything...
You see, hear all things;
And You indeed are in control.
You are in control.
I know that what You have said is true,
What You have declared can be written in stone.
So I will expect for today
Pray for today, until today comes.
Yes we will stand firmly
You are faithful
And faithful to answer.
The fulfillment of Your promises will be made known
Either now or later...
Healing and redemption WILL come...

Your ways are higher than ours
And Your thoughts far outweigh our wisdom.
You are God,
And You love us just 'cuz.
You are good and sovereign.

So...will I believe You?
Will I trust You?
Will I surrender?

Yes.

I will believe in Your promises;
I will trust You;
I will surrender all things into Your hands
Because I know
It is You who will bring all things to pass.