Remind Me Who I Am

I know that I am supposed to be a light.

But I feel the floods of chaos

Sweep me in its drowning destruction.

Bone against bone,

Flesh oppose flesh.

There is a war and I have been charged

The enemy.

Words composed of stones flail

Towards me; they pierce

And I find my heart amongst the casualties.

Ripped and jaded; warped and hated –

My mind weakened

My reflection blurred to something

Unidentifiable.  Your love forgotten,

I feel a fire raging inside of me.

Lividity given way at the sound

Of every poisonous word.

My soul has cowered

In their shadow.  Fear captures

My confidence, crippling it.

Rescue me once again.

Realign my vision to see entirely, for I was

Not intended to succumb to the defeated lies of hell.

I hear the crying of my children dying,

But if I try to save them, surely I will lose myself. 

Breathe into this dust coagulated as the form

Of the One who carries the heavens. 

Not of my strength do I draw,

But the leaven of salvation

Which is the hope of glory for all.