"Forgive Me, Lord"

 I have walked away.
I have held Your hand
And kissed another.
I have said, "I love You,"
But my actions forget.

Forgive this adulterous heart.
I long to be faithful,
Yet there is something
That beckons me
To take my leave.

I have become convinced
I can stand apart from You.
I breathe by sight;
Not by faith.
Change this adulterous heart
So that I may truly love You.

You have asked if I would
Take up the chase.
Run after You with
The entirety of my being.
There was a time

When we were close.
It came so fast,
And we were strong.
Where are we, now?

How dare I worship You
For myself?!
Begged for the Creator
Of the cosmos
Bend HIS knee.

How could I be so thick
To think this was about me?!
You are the first and last.
When the time comes,
We shall all bow before YOU.