One Foot in Front of the Other

I feel alone.
I feel my mind constantly
Analyzing, deciphering,
Wondering when joy will come.
My heart heavy,
Yet I fear it’s too much
To carry for you.
I know the mountain
On your shoulders;
Would my pains be the brick
To make you fall?

Putting one foot

In front of the other,

Persevering for the moment,

But silently screaming.

Don’t know if I should cry

For help; will anyone hear?

I’m tired of fighting

Life’s curses that endlessly come.

I’m tired of struggling

With where I stand

In my worth and purpose.

If He can feed the sparrows,

If He can clothe the earth,

If He can hold the world in His hands,

Then maybe my heart isn’t too heavy.

Even if alone -

I will run to Him.

Attempting my best, yet

Still not good enough.

And yet, I wonder…

Do you think the same of me?

When we said our vows,

What dreams did we

Refrain to speak;

What fears retracted

To not bring judgment?

Can we love one another

Beyond how we meet

The other’s contracted expectations?

How do we choose

To want the other while hiding

The pains that remain lurking?

How do we acknowledge

Where we may cause hurt,

And where can we, in turn,

Bring healing?

How do we support

When the other is weak?

How do we encourage

When one is distraught?

How do we desire reaching

One another’s hand

At a given moment?

How do we hope, believe and love

No matter the season?

If He can feed the sparrows,

If He can clothe the earth,

If He can hold the whole world in His hands,

Then maybe our hearts aren’t too heavy…

Maybe we can

-Together -

Run to Him.

Maybe the burdens we hide

Can become light

In His presence.